2 steps forward; 3 steps back

This past week, I really felt was  a rough week on me....yes, my birthday week and all; it just seemed like I kept grabbing the short end of the stick.    You see, as we all know I am expecting a little boy in 3 shorts months.  My world right now is in a constant "what if" state.  It seems like I have no control of a lot of things in my life right now.  I won't know when the condo will sell, where we will go, when Connor will arrive, what if all of that happens at the same time?  I know, I know, you're thinking; Lynsey- serisously one day at a time.  But, this is hard for me, "the type A, follow a list and check it off type of person". 

You see, about a month ago, I scheduled all of these appointments so I can try to keep control with things.  Dentist appointments, eye Dr check up, my normal Dr. appointment, shopping with friends, and well, all of that on top of trying to work and have the energy to workout; it's just hard to keep up and stay ahead.

Well, last week, not only did I have to cancel my dentist appointment because I didn't realize with my heart murmor that my actual family Dr had to see me to prescribe me my antibiotic...and well, with less than a weeks notice, I wasn't about to wait 3 hours in her waiting room.  So, I cancelled the dentist appointment.  A few days later, the eye Dr. receptionist calls and says that they do not accept our insurance and I would have to pay 100%....so, I cancelled that appointment as well.   It just seems as I sit, trying to get caught up in taking care of my health and my husbands- I keep getting the short of end of the stick trying to get ahead.  Sean on the other hand will be going to the dentist tomorrow morning for a teeth cleaning; lucky guy!

So, today, I sat in need of a hair cut- so after church; I left (as Sean worked on Connor's room) and I went and cut 5 inches off of my hair; and then I got layers- so...needless to say- I am not going to grow it out anymore to donate it.  I just couldn't do it; I wanted my nice healthy hair back; so I took control and got my hair cut!  Now...I hate it!  But it will grow back and it looks a lot healthier.

This week; Sean and I have a lot scheduled...he has dentist appointment and job interview for a promotion on Monday.  I have my ultrasound to check on Connor on Tuesday (please keep fingers crossed that they can see all 4 healthy heart chambers).  Wednesday evening, we have an infant CPR class, Thursday evening we have a meeting to see how much we qualify for a house...once the condo sells.  And, Friday evening; we have something planned, I am just forgetting at this point (hopefully it's relaxing) Saturday we are off to register for Connor....so with that all said...I am off to paint my nails and pamper myself as this next work week seems like it's going to be a busy one.  

So, as you venture into a new work week, do the best with what you have; and well...let's hope that everything goes as planned and we aren't taking any steps backwards this week.